Post Ding Depression Sets In

Getting through work was tough last week.  Out of the five schools I’ve applied to, two of them have dinged me already, and since I haven’t heard a peep out of Stanford, I assume that’s a ding as well.  That just leaves two schools left, both of which I completed interviews for.

This past weekend was essentially my first, in over 6 months, of being completely free of any type of business school prep obligations.  No GMAT prep, no essays, no interviews looming.  And while this should have been a celebration of sorts, I really couldn’t enjoy it.  I spent most of it sulking and worrying about the future.

I’ve never really had a detailed backup plan, in the case that I get into none of the schools I applied to, but one of the things I considered was applying to a one year international program, like INSEAD or London Business School.  I also know a couple of schools offer rolling admissions, but I’m not sure I have the heart to put myself through the application process again, at least not this soon.  I’ve never really considered staying at my job.  The pay and the work life balance are great, but I know that I need an MBA to get the professional development I want.

My day of reckoning is in about two weeks.  Until then, my life is in limbo.  It’s difficult to find enjoyment in everyday things when I know my life is about to be turned upside down.  And when that happens, I’ll either be feeling great or as if I’ve wasted half a year of my life.

This post is adapted from Random Wok, a blog written by Mark Wong from Silicon Valley. You can read all of his posts at Random Wok.

Selected posts by Wong at PoetsandQuants:

Why I Want an MBA

Climbing the GMAT Mountain: 630 to 710 on a Practice Test

Do Consultants Have An Unfair Edge Over Other Applicants?

Falling Behind & Stressed Out

My New Critical Reasoning Strategy

Figuring Out My Odds of Getting Into Harvard, Stanford, Wharton

With My GMAT Classes Over, It’s Now Just Me and the Test

Making a GMAT Test Taker Feel Like A Complete Pansy

With a Month to Go Before His GMAT Test, It’s Time to Focus

Is The GMAT Really Designed To Break You?

I Took the GMAT Today and Rocked It!

Charting All My GMAT Scores Over Time With Lessons

After Scoring My 750, It’s Now All About Applying

MBA Applications Wisdom from Muhammad Ali

Facing A Gauntlet of Round Two Deadlines

Should Everyone Apply to Harvard Business School?

The Final Click Is The Hardest Click: Sending In My Application

A Punch to the Gut: Bad Reviews On His Draft Essays

MBA Essay Writing: Draining the Life Out of Me

Beginning to Realize You Can Never Write The Perfect MBA Essay

With Wharton and UCLA Apps Done, He Feels Like a Zombie

Taking Back His Life After Sacrificing Health, Time & Sanity

Slammed with Business School Spam Thanks to GMAC

Getting an Invite for An Interview from Berkeley’s Haas School

UCLA’s Anderson School Asks Our Blogger To Interview

A Ding From Harvard Business School

After a Harvard Ding, Good News in a Cryptic Email from Wharton

Another Ding: First Harvard, Now Haas After An Interview

  • When we hear about “depression” we associate this word with mental illness. However, contrary to what the drug peddling psychiatrists say about it, depression is not an illness; it’s a human condition. It’s the opposite of joy, so it is part of an emotional spectrum with extremes at both ends. Morever, when we look at the buzz words dealing with depression in the realm of popular psychology such as, “self esteem”, “self worth”, “self image”, “self love”, “self Loathing”, etc., we can get that this entire area of study is about ego-centrism. There is no room in this private domain for anyone else. Moreover, the way our society deals with this subject as a whole even encourages narcissism. Therefore, barring any chemical or hormonal imbalances which doctors can correct, the person suffering from chronic bouts of depression needs to focus on the needs of others. The best therapy is a program that encourages people to be more altruistic and less self-centered.

  • Piyush

    Mark, I’m sure you are gonna get thru’ one of the 2 remaining.

    By any chance, if you need to attend a 1-yr program

    Have a look at ISB as well,

    Its a great school