The bad news is I need to be up and out of bed in 5 hours for cardio. The good news is that I’ve just submitted apps for Wharton, Booth and Stanford after an all Sunday marathon of checking, re-checking, editing, re-editing, praying, submitting and giving my debit card quite a workout (these app fees add up quickly!).
All of these apps are due back to back to back between later today (Monday) and Wednesday. Here is how my current application status breaks down:
HBS – was due 9/24 – submitted with all 3 rec’s in
Wharton – due 10/1 – submitted with both rec’s in
Booth – due 10/2 – submitted with 1/2 rec’s in (#2 submits later today)
Stanford – due 10/3 – submitted with 1/3 rec’s in (both remaining recommenders have committed to submit on 10/1; if not, I just might show up at their homes with a meat cleaver and a smile until they press the submit button; well, maybe not, but you get my drift).
MIT Sloan – due 10/24 – 1/2 rec’s in
Relief…then a Sense of Powerlessness
Ready for more good and bad news? Of course you are. Here goes: on the good side, I am incredibly relieved to have crossed this hump. Even though I still have one very challenging and unique app to complete (Sloan), I’ll take focusing on one partially done app over 3 weeks over focusing on 4 over a period of about 4 weeks any day.
I’m excited to become a gym rat again. I’m excited to feel free to join friends for drinks or just do nothing but sip wine or play PS3 one evening with no MBA APP GUILT (a gnawing feeling that you should be working on an application or essay; and that not doing so will be the fatal act of laziness that dooms your chances at dream school X) whatsoever.
Yet, before I could really even get my groove on with an emotional release and celebration, I was overcome with a sense of powerlessness regarding the apps that I had submitted. As it stands, Sloan is the only school app that I can still do anything about to improve my execution of it. All of the others are signed, sealed and delivered–locked away in an adcom file for a group of people who don’t know me to try to get to know me and decide my fate in their program. Scary; very scary.
Coming to Grips with Reality and Being OK With It
I’ve said before that accept or deny, I feel good about what I have submitted; and I still feel that way. There are people with profiles both more and less impressive than mine who have matriculated to (and been denied by) every program that I’ve submitted to.
For now, I”m just thankful that I really got to take my time with each deck, slowly cooking my app responses and essays over time. While I could have probably submitted a few weeks ago, I resisted the urge to move too quickly and continued my diligent path to the submit button for each. When I first began, I was told that submitting 5 apps in one Round would darn near kill me; however, I don’t feel that way. It was definitely a challenge and often a PITA, but I know that I gave myself enough of a head start to not end up feeling overly pressured.