Relief At Getting Those Round One Apps Done…But Now A Sense Of Powerlessness

I’ve just burned the last few drops of midnight oil between September 30th and October 1st, 2012.

The bad news is I need to be up and out of bed in 5 hours for cardio.  The good news is that I’ve just submitted apps for Wharton, Booth and Stanford after an all Sunday marathon of checking, re-checking, editing, re-editing, praying, submitting and giving my debit card quite a workout (these app fees add up quickly!).

All of these apps are due back to back to back between later today (Monday) and Wednesday. Here is how my current application status breaks down:

HBS – was due 9/24 – submitted with all 3 rec’s in

Wharton – due 10/1 – submitted with both rec’s in

Booth – due 10/2 – submitted with 1/2 rec’s in (#2 submits later today)

Stanford – due 10/3 – submitted with 1/3 rec’s in (both remaining recommenders have committed to submit on 10/1; if not, I just might show up at their homes with a meat cleaver and a smile until they press the submit button; well, maybe not, but you get my drift).

MIT Sloan – due 10/24 – 1/2 rec’s in

Relief…then a Sense of Powerlessness

Ready for more good and bad news? Of course you are. Here goes: on the good side, I am incredibly relieved to have crossed this hump. Even though I still have one very challenging and unique app to complete (Sloan), I’ll take focusing on one partially done app over 3 weeks over focusing on 4 over a period of about 4 weeks any day.

I’m excited to become a gym rat again. I’m excited to feel free to join friends for drinks or just do nothing  but sip wine or play PS3 one evening with no MBA APP GUILT (a gnawing feeling that you should be working on an application or essay; and that not doing so will be the fatal act of laziness that dooms your chances at dream school X) whatsoever.

Yet, before I could really even get my groove on with an emotional release and celebration, I was overcome with a sense of powerlessness regarding the apps that I had submitted. As it stands, Sloan is the only school app that I can still do anything about to improve my execution of it. All of the others are signed, sealed and delivered–locked away in an adcom file for a group of people who don’t know me to try to get to know me and decide my fate in their program. Scary; very scary.

Coming to Grips with Reality and Being OK With It

I’ve said before that accept or deny, I feel good about what I have submitted; and I still feel that way. There are people with profiles both more and less impressive than mine who have matriculated to (and been denied by) every program that I’ve submitted to.

For now, I”m just thankful that I really got to take my time with each deck, slowly cooking my app responses and essays over time. While I could have probably submitted a few weeks ago, I resisted the urge to move too quickly and continued my diligent path to the submit button for each. When I first began, I was told that submitting 5 apps in one Round would darn near kill me; however, I don’t feel that way. It was definitely a challenge and often a PITA, but I know that I gave myself enough of a head start to not end up feeling overly pressured.

  • Consortium schools have a common application that up to 6 schools can be on at once. I’m applying to 3. I became interested in Booth due to all of the good things they’ve been in doing in line with pumping out entrepreneurs with funding.

  • Tzeeentch99

    So far I applied to HBS, STanford, Wharton. Only Kellogg and MIT left. The original plan was to do all my schools first round. What’s a consortium school? Do they like use the same application? I’ve considered applying to Booth round 2 but haven’t made it to an info session? Can you enlighten me a bit about why you are so excited about it? Sounds like you got the inside scoop.

  • Congrats on your app submissions. I literally just got home from the gym…went right after work and am bout to pig out shower, and be totally unproductive for the next several hours. I doubt will be retaking the GMAT. My 2nd round schools are my Consortium Schools (Tuck, Berkeley, Yale) + Kellogg. I was going to apply both Booth AND Kellogg at the same time, but my learning curve about what Booth had to offer shot up steeply and quickly after a good friend matriculated this fall. I probably won’t begin 2nd round essays until November sometime. I’ll chill out most of this week and start banging away at Sloan close to the weekend. Where did you apply to this round thus far? And who’s left?

  • Tzeentch99

    Hey man,

    I’m totally right there with you. Just submitted 3 of my 5 first round apps. Its a relief though b/c just like you, I started going to the gym again yesterday, and can now actually starting dating again.

    I also was suffering from that MBA/GMAT App Guilt when I’d go out and such. Damn glad its gone now. I have to say coming home from work and not having to bang out some more essays or tearing up what I’d already written has been great.

    Even though I think after the initial first week of relief the waiting game will be the hardest part. Waiting to hear if you did or did not get an interview…….

    With these type of things I find just don’t think about the competition. I’ve heard about people with amazing stats who didn’t get in. Who can tell how AdCom’s minds work.

    I don’t think submitting 5 apps for round 1 will kill you if you start early. If you wait then yeh but if you got on them as soon the app opened I think you’d be pretty fine.

    Will you be taking the GMAT again for your round 2 schools? What are your round 2 schools?

    The one advice I have for future applicants is in regards to the dreaded stanford essay: START IT EARLY, DON’T Wait. Its an essay that needs many iterations and your first topic likely won’t be your final one. I literally went through 3 different messages before finalizing on the one I submitted.